In Reply to: ???? posted by gung_victa on Wednesday, 5. October 2005 at 14:28 Bali Time:
If I were in Bali now I would be frightened of what COULD happen. Therefore I have decided that rather than be scared in Bali I would stay at home and feel safe. Good enough for you? Or do you want to tell me I could be hit by lightening or the postie could run me over or a meteor might fall from the sky and hit my house while I am laying safely in bed?
In my little town in the North West of WA I feel safe. Okay?
You know I can still have holidays - as much as I love Bali it is not the be all and end all of the holiday universe. I actually had a wonderful holiday in Darwin this year as well. Amazing isn't it.
And can I also mention to you that I don't like the way I have been made to feel fear by the terrorists - it is not my choice to feel like this and if I could change it I would. Fear is something that has happened to me and I have no control over it. Some people are scared of spiders, some of snakes and I have a girlfriend who is petrified of chooks. But I don't ridicule any of them because right now, in all honesty, if I could make my fear go away by waving a magic wand I would do it in an instant. I would also erase the horrible images and thoughts that are stuck in my mind day and night. People have lost their lives and that is a reality. They didn't go to Bali to get blown up - it just happened to innocent people and I feel for them and their families. I also think that there but for the Grace of God that could have been my husband laying in a hospital bed in Singapore with a ball bearing stuck in his heart for the rest of his life.
Bali is a beautiful place, it has beautiful people but my decision is to support one family in my own way and I don't have to be in Bali to do that. Maybe that will be my way of healing. I hope so.