This recent bombing certainly had more impact on me in some ways than the 2002 bombing especially with regard to travelling to Bali again. I guess to some extent, following the 2002 bombings I was able to convince myself that perhaps this would not occur again and well I didn't go to the night clubs and bars so my family would be fine. This time however these were places I had been to, these were places that my 14 year old son had been to, Kuta Square is a favourite place for Jack and he spends a great deal of time either alone or with his 15 year old cousin as they go off and chat to the locals whom they have befriended. I was suddenly made aware of how difficult a decision to return is for those of us that have children and whether I had the right to decide for my child. I asked Jack how he felt about the bombings and he said "I am so angry with them (the bombers), if they think that will stop me going back, it won't". Jack also expressed concern as we all do for the balinese and the impact this could have on them, he asked "is Wendy still going to get married there?", I told him that I had spoken to Wendy (my sister) and yes she would still be getting married there and he replied "good!!!". Does it concern me travelling back to Bali with my son? Yes it is of concern however, what is of greater concern to me is not living my life the way I choose to, allowing these horrid beings responsible for these bombings to take from my son the joy and happiness he experiences in Bali and the deep kinship that he feels with so many of the local balinese. It is a very difficult decision to make as a mother and I feel for those of you who are struggling with this decision. Jack and I and other family members will be returning to Bali and yes my sister will be getting married in Bali and it is the beauty that still exists on that island that will make it all worth while.